Old flames Never die

Have you ever dated someone over and over again because, for some reason, you can't get over him? That's what happened and is still happening to me. There was this guy in 5th grade I liked a lot. He was the sporty guy, and all the girls were always wanting him to sit beside them. You know how it is when you're young. Of course you realize when you get a little older that the guy is a complete idiot, although in the back of your head, there's still that little bit of desire. Every once in awhile that guy will talk to you. In that moment you feel like the little girl you once were, and wish that your story would end happily. It never happens that way though. You realize that the little desire never fizzles, but it also never develops into a full fire. The thought's always there but the actions are never taken. Life is about decisions. Decisions take lots of thought and sometimes a little courage and most people are not courageous enough to do anything with their lives. A little like myself and this guy. Maybe by taking that leap of faith and asking him on a date will soothe my desire. Or maybe that leap will fall short and I will end up in the burning flames. I guess I'll never know. Like most people, I will carry on with my normal life and continue feeding the fire little bits at a time. In the end old flames never die and people continue shying away from potential happiness. Fun Fact: I hate being told what to do when it comes to relationships, I'd rather give advice then receive it.

Chicks before dicks...right?

About a month, I really started seeing one of my guy friends as more than a friend. Something had changed. He had gotten a lot hotter, I just couldn't take my eyes off of him. The only problem: he was dating one of my good friends. They had just broken up, but it was a little too soon to be even thinking about him in that way.  I know, I should have seen the stop sign and the big alarm sounding but I still kept going. I liked this guy and the harder I tried to forget that fact, the more intense the feelings got. My friends and I have this rule that after 2 months following the relationship, the guy is free to date whoever. Before that 2 months though, anyone who even glances at the ex-boyfriend gets attacked. That happens quite frequently to be perfectly honest. I've always followed that rule though and never gotten into any major fights. Last week though, he asked me to this formal event! WOOOOAH! I didn't know what to say, so I just nodded in agreement.On the outside, I was frozen in shock, but my heart was pounding like crazy on the inside. Now comes the fun part. If you haven't already calculated it this invitation was given to me... 3 weeks after they dated! I'm not too sure what to do. I know the saying «chicks before dicks», but what if that so called «dick» is your future husband? Confusion has set in, hopefully the event goes well! I'm sure I'll fill you all in with the details. Fact about Quinn: My favorite number is 17 :)

Dating your best friend

«Have you ever dated a best friend? Well I have and the end result was not good. Let's just say we don't talk...at all! It really does suck because we talked about anything and everything. The thing to understand, is that when you have a good guy friend, don't date him. It is not worth the heartbreak, which is in fact double the misery. Not only do you lose someone you love, but you also lose a friend. This boy was my rock, my shelter, quite frankly he was my life. One day though, it all went down the toilet. Everything that I thought I was to him turned to nothing. The mountain I was climbing, not only crumbled but destroyed me in its path. It's a good thing I look good with a cast on! » HAHA I bet you guys thought those were words of myself....they weren't! Although this girl, in a recent article I read, is a little dramatic, I do agree with the idea. I dated my best friend and it didn't end all that well. It's too bad; he was an amazing hugger! One fact about me is that I officially love going to the grocery store! Normally I find it boring but there is a new cashier and he is perfect eye candy which is just what I need right now...(I'm going to see him tonight, maybe I'll say something to break the ice)!

First boyfriend (continued)

I found out, that she not only went out with him before we dated, but they also had a secret thing during our relationship. I know...I shocked you guys. Hahaha. Anyways... at least me and her are friends now. In fact, we are really good friends. We both, now that were older, laugh about the whole situation, going on about how we were mad at each other, over an idiot. Good old cat fights. Getting back to the boy... We ended up dating a total of about 200 hundred times! He kept breaking my heart, and I was stupid enough to keep on going back. Maybe it was because of that necklace he bought me for Christmas. It was a nice little bear, very cute but Walmart quality. The stupid thing broke and fell to the ground, never to be found.  I got him a....shirt. I wasn't too creative at the time. I now have what I like to call a creative-gift-giving-mind. The receivers of my gifts never know what they'll get. MUHAHAHAHAAH! I thought the Pie In Face was a great idea for my teacher. Turns out he is allergic to whipped cream. Oops, sorry Mr.Guns. (That's what we called him) I swear that teacher is on steroids! That's all for tonight. One thing you guys should know about me is that I love fruitcake!!

First boyfriend

So today I did some thinking about my first real boyfriend. Now that I think about it, he was super not worth my time or energy. I used to walk around the neighbourhood in the middle of winter with him, while he did his stupid papers; earning like what, 10 cents a paper? I'm pretty sure the ice age weather is why I no longer have feeling in my fingers, it was lost on one of our many treacherous walks. Anyways, this guy was such a loser. He was in 8th grade and still played...WOW (world of warcraft). I should have got the hint he wasn't going to benefit me in any way whatsoever. If dating a loser wasn't bad enough, the girl who dated him before happened to be in my class. She didn't particularly like me after hearing about my new fling. In fact she despised me. For three whole years she held a grudge until I found out... I'll tell the rest another day. Every time I write I will try to leave with an interesting fact about me. Here's the first: I love curling! (It's a really intense sport (; )

Just the beginning...

My name is Quinn Lee McRae. I'm in 11th grade and have loved every minute of it. I'm a pretty average girl. I am always searching for something to do, so I decided to create a blog. It'll contain stories of my life, the boys I meet and the interesting situations I get myself into. As I write my blog you will get to know more and more about me: interesting facts, what I like and dislike and all that jazzy stuff. Oh I almost forgot...my blog title. For those of you who aren't familiar with the term quintessence, it is the fifth element in the universe. There are of course earth, water, fire and air which are the four essential elements, but people forget the fifth: quintessence. I thought it was pretty cool and it went with my name....what a coincidence! It also describes me, at times I feel my importance is forgotten. I'm here though. Hello, I'm Quinn McRae and these are various adventures that have sculpted me.